im just not myself without him
i never knew i would fall in love the way i have. i never knew that i could feel so comfortable in the arms of someone else. i didn’t think i would be lucky enough to meet someone as special as he is. i never knew that when he left i would feel so lost.
hes not just sexy and hot hes beautiful
hes so sweet and caring
hes just everything i could ever look for in a guy, hes everything any girl could would look for in a guy. But he doesnt see that, he thinks he couldn’t get anyone in this town, but really any girl would be happy and lucky enough just to get to spend one day with him. i really wish i could be that girl he used to love, the one he trusted and always wanted to spend time with. I wish he would give us another shot, one last try to see if we could make everything like it used to be, i really do believe it could be. but its all up to him now. i just wish he knew how much i do love him and care for him, how much i hate hurting him so i just wish he would believe that i wouldnt hurt him again, that even if he doesnt trust me now. He could.
SERIOUSLY who buys a fucking pandora for someone who he says is just there friend fucking fuck
R.
I wish you knew how i felt, how i feel everytime i see you with her, i just wanna run home and cry, i know you two have something special and i just wish it was me and you. Yeah im jelous i admit it and i HATE her but you mean to much to me to let a girl get in between us. But she is getting in between us but you don’t see that do you. If you ever thought about it, really thought about it you would see that we only fight about her, because she makes me feel worthless, like utter shit. I used to think you only saw the good in people, maybe thats why you loved me in the first place, but now you only see the good in who you wanna see it in. When you look at her you never see the bad things, her faults, when you look at me i know you don’t see anything good, you only see the smokes, pot, drinks, the bad things. When we broke up you promised me you would stay by my side but you LIED, you may say its harder than you thought but you haven’t stayed by my side, you haven’t even made sure im okay. If i tell you i’m upset you just get angry so now, im going to try and forget about you. You keep causing me so much pain but you don’t care. You give me mixed emotions about how you feel about me. I love you too much way too much, i know your too good for me, like ive always said your perfect.
.. and she really doesn’t know how much i need her in my life, just look at us. You can tell we were meant to meet each other, i used to think my life was perfect then i met Georgie Hamon and everything fell into place. I never want her to leave me because with out Georgie there is no Torse
i miss
kisses, hugs, being cared for, late night calls, Jessie-Lee Daphne Joy Morgan , the A4, drunk, stoned, unlimtid smokes, being happy, holding hands, jumping tree, summer, ally + torse + nick times… but most of all i miss Ricky Jason Heckendorf
and from the moment i laid eyes on him i knew there had to be something special there, i gave up my 2 bestfriends just for his love. i remember that first sunday the 23 November 2008 when you came over and we just lay together, i hardly even knew you but i was so comfortable with you. I remember all the times we spent together whether or not we were fighting every moment with you was special to me. Sure we got on each others nerves but i still loved you, and i knew you loved me more. But then i had to go and fuck things up, and im sorry i didnt think about how you would feel when i did it. I wasnt thinking and i regret it everyday, but you gave me another chance and i was doing everything perfect for you. But then she came into our lives and fucked it all up. You promised me nothing would happen with her and you kept to your word. And now? now you adore her, do you even still care about me like you say you do. Well i can answer that. No!
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